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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird
@ BeyondtheRainbow I feel like this could either be a big step and work out well somehow or be a disaster that ruins my stability. Idk I’m questioning myself now. Maybe I should just stick with volunteering for now with the kitties. It’s not like I need the money. I don’t. I would barely make anything extra after my SSI is adjusted based on whatever I’m paid at the job. I would maybe do a tiny fraction better than breaking even. It’s not even worth it. Idk I do really well in my daily life but when I’m under stress like in a job I unravel quickly and also start losing lots of sleep or going completely without and get really unwell. |
This is one of the parts of BP that just sucks. For years when I was working I couldn't sleep until 2-3 AM and then I had trouble getting up to go to work because I hadn't had enough sleep. Then after I went on Emsam and Nuvigil combined I started falling asleep at 11 PM and waking at 4 AM every night. It worked really well for me I thought but my therapist says it was awful and that he was afraid that he was going to have to be the one to tell me that I couldn't work anymore because I was so unstable. Instead I had surgical complications and that did the job for him. Now that I'm on the right mix of meds for me I have a weird sleep cycle that I hate but which does work for me.
Even though working was so hard I still wish I could do it, even part-time. There's no way I could be on clozaril and work though.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD.
Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1600 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 2.5 mg clonazepam., 75 mg Seroquel and 12.5 mg PRNx2 daily
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