Hello,

I'm dealing with time stress. My time with my husband is lacking, but I don't have a good solution for that. Not until he gets a good job, as he works a 3rd shift. I want to spend time away from the house while he sleeps. Because when he's awake, then we can spend time together. But when he's asleep, I don't want to wait. I'm already dealing with wanting more day time. I have enough night time by myself. But day time when businesses are open or the sun is shining and the outdoors is calling, that is where I want to be. Being stuck at home without something to do makes me feel down.

He has anxiety when I'm not here at his side.

I had a half day. I had work figured out so I could leave early. I haven't had a good day to enjoy the weather. My husband wanted to sleep longer, but I wasn't quite sure when. So I thought he would sleep late like normal. So I was working from home, got my stuff done, had big dreams of just relaxing at the park. If I go with my husband, then I'm rushing due to his work schedule. I normally go walk during my lunch break, so I felt like me leaving early, I was treating it as my lunch until he woke up.

He went to the bathroom at noon. I had an hour left. He wanted up at 2pm. I told him I was heading to the park when I'm off. He asked.me to wait. I told him if I wanted to wait, I wouldn't left work at 1pm. I wanted to leave the house at that exact moment. I had my work all figured out so I could go to the park. I mentioned getting my early release to him several times. He mentioned to me about getting woken up at a certain time, but I don't recall, and he told me it when I was mid sleep.

I'm just like its an hour, let me just go to the nearby park.

I want to lose weight. I don't want to rush. I gained 30 pounds. I can't workout at work anymore like my last job. I want to workout outside, not in a gym.

I cant do it after work because of him and his schedule as that is the only time I spend with him. I can't do it before work because he would want to go by doesn't have the energy and if he doesn't have energy, and I'm already trying to get motivated to leave the bed, it's not happening.

I want to spend time with him, but I don't want to wait for for him.

He got pissed because he saw it as me being impatient.

I got pissed because I had work moved around so I could get daylight hours. I wanted to enjoy my daylight hours with or without him. I didn't want to wait. So I asked him, we can go now (at this point my time at work was up) or I can go now and pick him up afterwards. He argued about sleep. I argued about let me go out then.

Finally he came with me at 1:30.

Sunday, we had a small issue. I woke up early. He promised all day in the sun, but wasn't getting up as he stayed up early (I know his sleep is ****ed). I'm in bed for 2 hours waiting for him to finally wake up. But then my friend messages me and asks to go walk. Yay I don't have to wait. So I told him, he says "No...go ahead just go."

The entire time I felt bad. As soon as I knew he woke up, I was moving us to the exit path. I felt guilty. But I wanted time out, while he wanted time in the house. He finds me being cagey. And I'm just like dude, let me just enjoy the weather. I want to lose weight. I don't get daylight hours because I have to be home with you to eat dinner together and watch TV before he leaves for work at 7:30pm and I get off at 5pm. So there's no time to workout without feeling rushed or waiting for him

I want to spend time with him but I don't want to wait or rush. I'm tired of waiting or rushing for him. I want time to be at peace. I want time to just do me.

This is going to be the same on Saturday as I made plans to go walk with my friend at 8am. He sleeps after his shift. Hopefully it's early enough it won't be an issue.