I think self-awareness is definitely a problem for many BPD folks in the moment but in the grand scheme of things the ones I've met and myself tend to be able to answer the questions accurately once the right ones have been asked--whoever asks them, whether it's someone else or them/ourselves.
I haven't watched Kati Morton's videos in a while, I think how much I liked them depended on my mood honestly haha.
Haven't heard of Borderliner Notes (or seen Borderline).
BPD is a really broad "disorder" so when people go and talk about it there's gonna be a lot that fits and some that doesn't fit. It's kinda like the AA saying "take what you like and leave the rest."
I find in general my BPD is worse when I'm more social just because interpersonal stress. It's kinda miserable and torturous to be alone, but it's chaotic and I feel really insecure with others for me, if that makes sense. People with BPD tend to have an anxious or disorganized attachment style and I'm guessing people with disorganized attachment styles (myself) are more likely to have periods of isolation than those with anxious-preoccupied styles, and maybe the different styles are affected by isolation differently even with the same borderline traits. I don't know, that's a shot in the dark.
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"I don't know what I'm looking for."
"Why not?"
"Because...because...I think it might be because if I knew I wouldn't be able to look for them."
"What, are you crazy?"
"It's a possibility I haven't ruled out yet,"
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