Okay, pushed off my gp appointment another month. He is going to kill me when i finally show up. But i am kinda falling apart. I cant take these deadlines. I have no clean clothes and the house is a mess. OTOH, i like the way i am managing myself, giving myself an out, instead of just spinning out. That is new. I am staying conscious and trying to come up with solutions, give myself breathing room, eat more vegetables and proteins!