Well I haven't been here in a while. Log story short the police, I didn't call them and adult protective services got involved in my old caregiver stealing from me. I keep finding more and more stuff she stole. What was I thinking though about letting her just come in and wake me up.

I got a new caregiver that starts Friday. I hope she works out.

I have a zoom appointment with my psychiatrist on the 30th. I'm pretty sure he's going to start taking me off clonazapam. I'm hoping this new caregiver helps me go out driving soon. We already discussed it and she said she would.

I just have such a hard time sleeping. My best friend and I got into an argument, but we've made up. My sister who had surgery to remove the tumor from her lower spine is in a lot of pain and is having horrible balance problems. Especially with turning. My other sister went out Thursday thru Sunday to help her. But she had to go back to work and my sister with balance issues had a dr appointment today but he didn't want my sister going. She's really annoyed.

I'm just so disappointed in myself. I know what it will take to help my back pain some and to get walking again and gain strength in my arms. But I don't do it. I just feel like I want to cry. So overwhelmed. Worried about my son and my sister who lives in Eugene and is drinking herself to death ever since my other sister who lived with her passed 3 years ago. She once was a vice president of a insurance company and now if you talk to her in the day she can make me cry with how mean she can be. Then at night she apologizes but then she doesn't remember what you said. My family is falling apart. 😪