If it’s mania for me, then adderall helps my mania haha because I haven’t been doing that lately. I don’t need the Zyprexa other than “needing an appetite stimulant » which I think as long as I am able to function I am good.

It’s not like taking the zyp even helps me eat regularly. When I was in the hospital taking it, it did nothing until after meal time when I wasn’t allowed to eat so that was moot. I took it my first day back and practically panicked because I just kept thinking about how much I hated being on it the prior times I was forced to take it (never felt more like a failure as a hiker than attempting a kids hike on Zyprexa). It is a pretty much guarantee if I take it I’m going to go straight to binging and purging at least daily again like I did the last dose I took (and this is not the economy for that balderdash).

I am making it a point to put “eat” on my to do list every day (and I’ve already done it today!) and put the list on the fridge so it doesn’t get lost and everything that can get crossed off does get crossed off.