I know, but it just doesn’t seem right. Every time I do eat my stomach revolts (last night I had half a granola bar and felt like I had taken Tramadol with like that body high kinda feeling but much much colder, more unpleasant, and more centralized to my core) and I know, threaten my doc or something, but I still see her Friday, and I don’t think I can get in any sooner. I don’t have time Thursday or tomorrow anyway.

I cant uncount the calories I already counted though. I will stop.