had to go to docs to get anti axiety pills today .... i was managing without them back with a vengeance, maybe because i am sick of being invaded by teenagers, my kids friends mothers calling at the last minute saying, 'just wondered how Joel is getting home i just had a glass of wine or 2' do we have MUG written somewhere? last night my daughters b/f arrived here at 11pm, promptly asked for some food after he'd been at his dads all night who never has anything in (not because he's got no money .... just too lazy to shop) we are struggling, i feel taken advantage of so much just lately ..... i don't mind usually, but things are piling up it seems ..... it may sound petty, but i feel i never have ANY peace at all here .... i crave peace .... well, hubby is taking me and the dog to Derbyshire tomorrow, just us .... i'm gonna go to the stone circle and sit and try and imagine yesteryear ..... sorry to winge .... i'm not tight fisted or anything, but just lately it's like having a second son and another adult in the house....

big sigh, Kerry xx off for a diazapam