Dissociation has escalated into panic and convinced that my meds are poisoning me. Trying everything I can to stay calm. I was so dissociated a few minutes ago while I was panicking about meds poisoning me I almost felt like I was gonna black out or something from dissociating so hard.

I have klonopin I can take but I’m trying to avoid taking it. The last time I took it was last Thursday. It helps but I know it’s not good to take it frequently.

I’m just gonna sleep on the couch tonight with my lights and tv on. I’m scared of being alone but I’m alone so I guess it is what it is. I don’t even know if I’ll be able to take my night meds tonight. I have a hard time taken them when feeling this way.