I'm going to bed soon, but wanted to take a moment to reflect here -- I dont post often and go stints where I am here a lot, then disappear. That's probably not going to change anytime soon, but I do want to contribute more when I can. I do lurk very often though to keep up.

Today was fine. Nothing out of the ordinary happened and I've been doing OK. I had therapy today and it went well -- we made a new treatement plan and got the ball rolling on some new goals. I'm looking for a hobby to get back into. I love learning-- so a language, how to cook, some academic subject I like to read about like psychopharmacology... anything really. I just need to spend more time doing something that feels fun. I also would like to get out more, not just walking and exercise-- but social. It's a minor goal of mine too.

If I've learned anything over the years, being who I am, is that things can change moment to moment. I need to accumulate the good so when the bad hits, I can soften the blow. It's more or less what I'm doing now with collecting my resources (meds, therapy, exercise, diet, social activities, hobbies etc.) to have a fallback when the other shoe drops, as it inevitably will. That's not me being pessimistic-- thats reality of me. I get ovewhelmed, dive into a depression and become a recluse. I slowly come out of it... and process cycles. Meds help, therapy helps, and time between varies... but beyond that the ebb and flow of natural life demands it. On some level, we are always going to have highs and lows. Let me enjoy my high and prepare well to weather my lows, ya know?

Have a good night everyone!