"Are there those in your circle of friends or family who deny mental illness or your suffering or offset its blame on "what you eat" or "poisions you put in your body like medication"? How do you deal with that?"

Yup, my family is like that. They feel I can think my way out of the situation.

They criticize that I take meds, and say bad things about them when they see me taking them. So I started taking them when the family is not around and I keep my meds hidden. I make trips to the pharmacy on my own even if we're in the store and my meds are ready - stupid things like that.

The funny thing is I've been taking those meds for them, so that I can stay productive and pay for and support their lives! And it's so horrible they then go and criticize me for taking them.

It's up to me to cope with my issues and how the family "deals" with my issues. I use the quotes because I generally hide my issues from my family but sometimes when it's really bad, it becomes apparent that something's going on.

I have become more effective at hiding what's going on and my family feels that I'm cured at this point, which obviously is far from reality.

The issue I'm facing now is that I'm participating in a study and cannot drive myself to certain appointments, so I'm dependent on them. They say they're supportive and will drive me however they expect that everything will be "normal" after the study. It's a lot of BS.