I'm starting to think that I can't produce endorphins, dopamine, or serotonin. Is it possible? I've heard deficiency, but what about being unable to produce it? I have tried numerous things, but nothing seems to help. Some things that are recommended are:

Exercise: I go to the gym three times a week for 30 minutes to an hour. I find it's just makes me feel angry. The more strenuous it is, the angrier I feel. I just gets my blood pumping and it has the complete opposite affect.

Acupuncture: Considering I'm a Type 1 Diabetic, and I'm not afraid of needles, so maybe it's worth a shot?

Meditation.: You need a relaxing setting and there isn't any for me. There is always too much noise and I constantly get interrupted.

S*x: LOL

Playing music: I don't have the talent or the money and patience to learn.

Laughter: It does help, on the rare occasion I find something funny.

Ultraviolet light: I'd probably get skin cancer, knowing my luck.

I haven't been truly happy for a long time. Come to think of it, I don't know if I ever have been. Especially the last few years, it's been one bad thing after another, to the point that I have developed PTSD. It seems no matter how hard I try, I will just fail miserably.