I have dissociative issues from trauma too, though. I do think it’s more strong emotions getting in the way.

I can’t bring myself to mention this. I know they know it’s an issue given my diagnoses and behaviors, but I don’t think they realize that all the “healing” they think I’ve done has come from this site, workbooks, hospitalizations, etc. and it doesn’t even feel like healing. It just feels like learning how to shut my face before cops show up and how to hurt myself in less visible ways to get them off my back.