Sorry for everyone struggling. muddy, be gentle on yourself. You NEED the calories and you don't need to be taking 5 mi walks right now. You have got to practice self-care even if it may seem the hardest thing in the world right now. Better times can come... I know you don't want to hear that, but I was ready for sui in late November and have really turned a corner in that regard.

@Nammu sorry about the steps that really sucks! I hope the iron pills help with your iron. If not, you may need a higher dose (or if that it is too constipating) an actual iron infusion. (I had a couple of those over the years.

@Blue_Bird Glad you have gotten out of the dissociation, but racing thoughts, ugh! I'm having some of those myself this afternoon.

@Crazy Hitch I eloped for my wedding too. Best decision I could have made, and I wouldn't go back and change a thing!

As for me, I'm scattered this afternoon. Can't really settle. Drew 3 pics (in the creative corner) but nothing turned out right. I feel like I am stuck in fight or flight mode and just can't get out of it no matter what I do. I really, really need something to calm down. I think I'll see if I still have chamomile tea.