My case manager said it was good I hadn’t cut, burned, hit myself, tried to jump off any bridges/parking garages/buildings/into traffic, tried to infect myself, ffed around with suspicious people, used substances, or other forms of self-injury other than restricting in a month. She’s not super concerned. My therapist isn’t super concerned. My PCP didn’t seem overly concerned. The ER gave zero shyts about me walking home with numb feet about to throw up saying I’d rather die than eat again.

I don’t get why I need to care either. I’ve always cared LESS about my life than any of the others anyway.