@MuddyBoots, I really feel for you. Know you're not alone. I can relate. A lot of us, if not all, can relate. I'm not going to say it gets better, I know it's hard to believe, I know it's really dark. Somebody cares, I care, we care. A lot.

You matter @MuddyBoots , and your feelings matter.

The fact is you're a physical being and you need to eat. Not eating makes you feel even worse. Your body is trying its hardest for you, and it needs energy to support you. It won't solve your problems, but eating something will at least help you physically and can make a big difference.