Lady shadow, blueberry makes a good point. You just had a horrific episode. It would certainly take me longer than a few months to get back in the swing of things. After my last episode it took me a year before I was not in a mild state of shock from rejoining a normal state of being. I’m wondering if you might have codependency issues where you need to be with someone. Instead of just enjoying a partner you have an unhealthy need to absolutely must have someone? Did you say you have a T you might be able to discuss that with? It seems to me that you went from one relationship directly into another intense relationship. I know you were forced to be physically apart by jail then requirements of probation. But you were still bound intensively into the relationship. You have so many healthy relationships with your parents, your friends and AA buddies but it doesn’t seem to be enough?