I ended up at 5.5 hours of sleep on the double zopiclone. Sleep was deep, but short.

I feel really strange this morning, but I guess that's too be expected. I think I'll be ok in the afternoon.

I'm checking whether I can add Klonopin to find out if that helps.

I've been thinking a lot. Not overthinking, but exploring. I've been trying to find out what's underneath all of the struggle, pain, all of what others call misunderstanding. I think I'm starting to gain an understanding of what's going on. It's small steps but I think they're going in the right direction.

Maybe I'm looking at this too deeply. Maybe that's the way I am - depressed. I'm not sure, but it's worth looking.