My mood has been back to being stable the last couple of days. I was even able to go back down to 12.5 mg of seroquel (instead of 25 mg). Hopefully, things will stay this way. POTs has me not feeling that great physically though.

It hit me yesterday that I am emotionally/mentally burnt out. What we all do every day-having to manage our symptoms (even when stable)-is hard and exhausting. For me, the constant balance of managing both my bipolar symptoms and POTs symptoms on a daily basis has drained me-I think it's this last bout of hypomanic symptoms and having to restart my vertigo exercises that pushed me to feeling completely burnt out. It's hard because what often helps a person feel refreshed is to take a break from what is exhausting them, but taking a break from managing my health isn't really an option (unless I want to risk getting worse). Because of this, I don't have the mental capacity to be as present to my students as they deserve...

So is life I guess. It is what it is, it's just where I'm at right now. Everyone here deserves to give themselves a pat on the back for all the work you do to take care of yourself.