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I am having a tough morning, not so much moodwise but otherwise. I'm tired because Pecan started walking on me at 3:45 AM. I finally drifted off to sleep for 15 min or so, woke up again, finally just got out of bed at 4:30 AM. My walk was a slog the entire way. I don't know if it was because of chemical plant pollution (which Houston is among the top 10 most polluted cities in the U.S. so it's plausible especially as there was a strong chemical odor in the air when I started my walk). Usually if my walk is hard at the beginning, it will ease up after 1-1.5 mi, but not this morning. I should have come in after 2 mi, but stubborn me, I did my normal walk.
Even once I came in, showered, dressed, have been inside nearly an hour not doing anything strenuous, I'm still finding breathing hard. I don't know if it's anxiety/panic or just chemicals, fatigue, etc. I am going to try a low dose Seroquel to see if that will help. It's earlier than I normally take it, but I'm feeling desperate at this point. And at this point, yes, I'm a bit panicky that breathing is still so hard for me, I don't have asthma or anything like that, it may just be a combo of everything, but I really hate this.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD
Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine,
There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in.
--Leonard Cohen
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