I took my morning meds and was able to sleep for 3 hours. Surprisingly. Normally I’m not able to sleep during the daytime. I turned my lights out and I have light blocking curtains and put on my sleep mask and was able to get 3 hours. Which doesn’t make up for 30 hours without sleep but it should hold me over till tonight when I can actually get a solid night of sleep after taking my night meds

I took an uber to the pharmacy to pick up my meds. There was no way I was gonna attempt walking downtown and taking the bus on no sleep. So just took an uber there and back and it was quick and easy and my uber drivers were really nice.

Anyway, I feel less irritable and terrible now that I’ve slept some.

Feeling really grateful for my mood stabilizer trileptal, my abilify and my Thorazine. I guess that’s a sign not to ever mess with my meds. This wasn’t even on purpose though like I just kept procrastinating on picking them up from the pharmacy then I didn’t realize until I was suddenly completely without most of my meds. The Zoloft is there too but I can miss some doses of Zoloft with no negative effects really. But missing trileptal, Thorazine and abilify is a sure fire way for me to get zero sleep and super irritable and impulsive. It’s like no meds equals no sleep , more impulsivity and irritability and no sleep equals even more impulsivity anger and irritability, mood swings, it’s just a spiral.

I used to do this stuff all the time though, completely go without sleep. Like I’d be working one day, going home, not sleeping the whole night, then going straight back into work in the morning and working all day. Idk how the hell I did that. It wasn’t a once in awhile thing either I was doing it several times a week every week for months. This was last year. Idk how I even managed to function. One night without sleep now and I’m ready to break down and cry