@Blue_Bird I'm glad you picked up your meds and slept some. For me, it is a nightmare to miss my meds especially if I'm off the Cymbalta more than a day or so and if I skip even 1 night of Seroquel, I am guaranteed to have a horrible night - difficulties falling asleep and then terrible night sweats. It happens even when I reduce my Seroquel; sometimes I think if I could just reduce it, I'd have more energy but then I don't sleep, get irritable and manic and if the mania isn't taken care of ASAP for some reason I go into psychosis FAST, and my psychosis is god-awful, I black out for days at a time. Thankfully, since I live with H and my daughter, they see to it I get to a psych facility right away when the psychosis starts.

@Brentus Wow, your grandparents sound like uncaring, malicious people. Your poor sister. I only have my grandmother still alive. She is like a 2nd mom to me (and often better than my own mom, who is mostly okay these days though every now and then she will do/say something that pushes my buttons). My grandmother is almost 92, so I know her time here can end any day. Thankfully, my grandparents were all kind to us and good people despite most of them having lived extremely hard lives.

@LadyShadow I am sorry you are dealing with bipolar mood swings and it sounds to me like you want to work out the relationship with your ex, but what if he deserts you again the next time you are manic or depressed, I just think you really should consider stepping back from that relationship, let things cool down, get yourself stable. I definitely wouldn't have recovered enough from such a bad manic episode yet and be ready to try to re-ignite the relationship with your ex, which is what it sounds like to me you want to happen unless I'm mistaken. Have you done much work in therapy on your issues with co-dependency? (I can't remember, are you seeing a T?).