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LadyShadow · May 03, 2025, 11:19 AM

Feeling better today than I did yesterday. Staying at home and staring at the computer all day is no good for my mental health. But I need to work and make money and save, and that's the only way I know how right now, there is just too much down/idle time for me to think and fester and get dramatic. I really don't know what I am going to do about money.

@BeyondtheRainbow - I don't think a reduced rate would help because I still have to pay a $45 copay which I can't afford, so even if therapy is $60 per visit, I still owe $45, it's so stupid. BetterHelp didn't give me any other options either. Even at poverty level it's still $50 a visit. There is just no hope.

I hope you have a better day @MuddyBoots and I hope you feel better @Moose72

@Blue_Bird - I eventually had to block my ex on all platforms, phone numbers included. Our exes sound very similar. My ex-husband was a really bad drug addict who said, "well I only go out and party once a month so it's no big deal" and refused to take his meds too because they made him feel bad. Then he would just disappear in the street and worry everyone for days. I don't know if it's an option for you, or if you can, but blocking is eventually what did the trick. It was so painful going back and forth with him for so long.

Having said all that, I really should take my own advice because I seem to be really bad at relationships and codependency. I am feeling better today because I am out and about and at my parent's house today. Tomorrow is going to be a busy day too. I just wish I had some kind of purpose and some kind of way to save money. I know I shouldn't be going over it so much, but that last manic episode took so much from me, including all my savings, and I just feel horrible not being able to put it back. I just don't know what to do.