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Old May 03, 2025, 03:49 PM
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Yeah, I've been kind of quiet about it because I felt like I was gonna spam the thread with my updates (a lot of stuff happened). So it's been going on for a while.

But I got my dose the other day, and as I said the good parts were really good!

The bad parts were pretty bad. I developed convulsions throughout my body during the session. They involved everything, legs, arms, body, and happened 10-15 sec apart. They thought I was having seizures but I said I was alright and went on with the experience for 5 hours (had convulsions all through that time).

So afterwards, I had a lot of trouble walking and still do. The convulsions continued at home and the next day. So lots happened.

I also now have some physical issues related to the convulsions.

They investigated really thoroughly and determined that things weren't serious and that they would clear up at some point, but no timeline.

My biggest problem at the moment is extreme tiredness and being unable to walk normally. So I'm out of commission for a while.

But it was all worth it in the end. It hasn't done anything for my depression yet but I had some amazing experiences and a couple of experiences that fundamentally changed how I look at and experience life.

It was not at all like ketamine - it was much more involved and less abstract (no colors and shapes, but a lot of real objects)

Edit: I get Psilocybin just one time, and that's enough for me it is a really big dose though
How did they give you the psilocybin? Did you get to eat shrooms or did they turn it into a purer form?

I do think hallucinogens in general can help in the way you described. I’ve had a few trips that the experiences like you said changed how I saw things. Unfortunately the perspective changes didn’t maintain as engrained over the years (one trip (not psilocybin) actually had me thinking for a bit my self-destructive behaviors really hurt other people more than myself, I still kinda see that intellectually but I don’t feel it as much or really live by it).
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