Blue_bird don’t hate yourself for not knowing how to do something you’ve never done or been taught before! That’s not going to help. Definitely find someone who can help you out, google some budgeting tips, and be patient with yourself. I know it’s frustrating because it’s important and you might feel you should have it down, but you’re in a similar position to someone who moved to a country with a different language with no background in that language trying to figure it out on their own if you think about it. Cut yourself some slack!