I'm so sorry. I wish there were better treatment for mental health. I don't feel I'll ever get better either. They just gave me 2 new pills and pills are dangerous for me. I won't tell t or pdoc but every night the thoughts haunt me. I've accepted the ED is going to be life long. I no longer talk about my feelings that they don't want me to have. I'm making progress when actually I've given up. Please don't be like me don't give up.