@MuddyBoots We'd both be better off deleting our ED playlists, that's for sure. Are you managing to at least maintain your current weight and not keep losing? Remember you do not NEED to get worse before going into ED treatment, in fact, you can do your hardest to try to improve things some. In some ways, I've accepted this ED is going to stay with me probably for the rest of my life, but it definitely doesn't need to stay at its most destructive. Even if I have a lot of ED thoughts, I don't act on them at least, it's progress of a sort. I'd rather not have ED thoughts at all, but at least I'm not dealing with long-term ED complications other than osteopenia. Even if you can't control your thoughts, you can control your actions following those thoughts. It's incredibly uncomfortable, but it's do-able. You don't have to get worse before you get better.