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May 05, 2025, 12:29 AM
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Member Since: Mar 2021
Location: California
Posts: 3,670
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My latest "worth living" and suicide prevention thing is this music:
It is very individual, of course, but maybe there is something for you in the world of music that you can listen to or play to remind yourself of the will to live.
And speaking of this music, the composer had long periods of deep depression when he canceled his performances as a pianist. That didn't prevent him from becoming one of the world's top pianists (with the biggest hands, as far I know, reaching the widest diapason between pinkie and thumb) and, apparently, as a composer, influencing not only the golden age of Disney and Hollywood but also music in modern computer games, not that I play them or know much about them.
Your problem is probably poverty and being all alone. If you had had better cards dealt to you, your life would have been much better despites all of these diagnoses. With the cards you have been dealt and with the "bouquet" of diagnoses, you are doing amazing well. You drink water, take showers, go outside, help other people with their problems.
If you listen to the Piano Concerto number 2 through the end: around 7-8 minutes is my "life is worth living" music.
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Bipolar I w/psychotic features
Last inpatient stay in 2018
Lybalvi 10 mg
Naltrexone 75 mg
Gabapentin 1500 mg+Vitamin B-complex (against extrapyramidal side effects)
Long-term side effects from medications, some of them discontinued:
- Hypothyroidism
- Obesity BMI ~ 38
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