I'm really struggling. It's all a lot to handle and I'm so tired of having to always be carrying a heavy load. I need things to be lighter, and not dire straights. When will it end? Mom just had surgery so I need to also help out and be with her.. the weather forecast is RAIN for 4 days when I am supposed to go to this camping music festival - if the forecast doesn't change, I want to forfeit. My Director hasn't gotten back to me yet, and my boss is still overtly avoiding me. The new-ish guy is backing off - I can sense it - and mr fun guy is totally gone. I have waaay overshared with new-ish guy, and I feel foolish and embarrassed. I want to crawl under a rock.

I am falling apart.

I am crawling out of my skin today.