I wanted to make a headband to make myself feel good about myself but I ended up with this mess didn't put it away and mum got upset called dad. Ended up with dad gesturing to hit me and then I defended myself and we have a scuffle it was just a mess. Coz I just get accused of being lazy but I've tried to do something to make myself better but I'm not good enough. I don't think I should of ever existed. Like my life is a waste there's nothing useful about me. I just wanted to be good at something but I'm not and it just hurts.