Saw my pdoc today. Meds all stay the same. I left there feeling a little discouraged though. There's just a little bit of a disconnect between how much I feel having bipolar disorder and POTs affects me compared to how my pdoc sees it (he sees it as less than I do). He did admit though that he might not be the best judge because he gets the whole spectrum of severity. He hasn't said it, but I am probably one of his most mild cases of bipolar disorder. It's still a pain to stay stable though. I should note, my pdoc wasn't trying to dismiss what I was talking about, it really just is a difference in perspective. I still think my pdoc is great! This is a common issue I have-getting people to see how much something impacts me-because they see me doing well in life so figure things are fine. It's not necessarily that I'm fine though-a traumatic childhood just caused me to be REALLY good at masking things, taught me it's better/safer to just keep things to myself, and taught me to thrive in survival mode.

I think I'm in a good spot packing. I will finish up after school tomorrow. I plan on leaving after my last class of the day so I can stop by my new place quick and then finish packing. There are a lot of smaller things (papers, electronics, meds, etc.) I'll have to move on my own, but I'm set up for the majority of my stuff to be moved by the movers.

Had some SI today. It's mainly triggered by how overwhelmed I feel about moving and wrapping up the school year.