Almost 4 weeks since losing my brother to suicide.
His wife is trying to hurt me because he had confided in me about her. He sent mediation to my home a few times (not illegal) and he was doing it way before we had started speaking again. I did stop it aswell.
However he hung himself.
His wife knows I didn't do anything illegal. This has been confirmed by 3 police officers. She has claimed she is going to try get my job taken away from me as it is a caring role. I never put him at harm. I have a message stating he wished to end his life because of work, his wife and family. And she knows this.
I know I didn't do anything wrong however she is threatening my livlihiood. I'm 12 weeks pregnant and I've not been able to enjoy this pregnancy.
I dont want to lose this baby.
But I don't want to be here.
The thoughts of ending it are much greater and continuously getting worse.
I just want everything to stop. I've spoke to a mental health specialist who gave me a sick note. I've self referred to a brilliant service. It's a 8 week wait
I feel like if I just wasn't here anymore it's all going to be better.