Apartment is getting so cluttered. I'm going to take 2 trips out to the dumpster today and more tomorrow. After this week I have 9 of 11 days off, so I'll try to use that time to clean my apartment and throw out as much junk as I can. I'm not a hoarder, the depression just gets to me and tells me to just put something somewhere within reach and deal with it later. Not in an audible voice, of course...

I've cooked my own meals 3 days in a row. I have a few basic recipes I use on rotation. But I'm still feeling quite down right now over the woman who ghosted me. I've accepted that it's over and she's likely never to reappear in my life in any way, but the grieving process is likely to be rather long. I think it's made worse because just 2-3 weeks before she disappeared my best friend, my cockatiel, died, so it really feels like I'm more alone than ever.