I had an appointment with my psychiatrist today and realized I made a terrible mistake regarding my loxapine (I take seroquel and loxapine as my antipsychotics). We're weaning me off loxapine to see how I do, and I misunderstood her at my last appointment and thought she wanted me to go down A LOT more than she actually did. I was originally taking 50mg and I went down to 20mg, when she only wanted me down to 40mg!

Whoopsie.

This med is a ***** to get off of though, so there's no way I'm increasing my dose! Now she wants me on 30mg. Not happening lady.

(Obviously I didn't actually tell her about this little misunderstanding. She's a little Chinese lady who's hard to understand at times. And sometimes she has a hard time understanding me, so communication with her is difficult.)

Anyway, I've been pretty caught up in the Sleep Token universe for a while now. They just released their new album Even in Arcadia on the 9th, and since then I've been in Arcadia. I can't stop listening to this album. It's absolutely beautiful. I'm so excited to see them in September.

I've been pretty happy. Pretty anxious though. I told my psychiatrist today and all she said was, "The diazepam and gabapentin should be helping with that." And I was like, "Okay. Thanks." I should have asked her if there was anything we could do, but there really isn't. I already take 30mg of diazepam and DO NOT want to increase that dose and 800mg of gabapentin 4x a day. I'm on enough anti-anxiety meds to knock out a rhinoceros!

Finally getting my Sleep Token tattoo on Wednesday! I'm so excited!!! I've only been wanting it for over a year. It's going to be FANTASTIC.

Spring cleaning lately. Got rid of all my old writing shyt, like journals and notebooks and stuff. Pretty much the last 30 years of my life. I'm a new woman!!!!

Who's in Arcadia!