I went out last night regardless to see a band and I am so glad I went. I was lyiing on my couch thinking that I had TWO choices: 1) to lie there and feel sorry for myself, feeling depressed and down or 2) get up and do something that will help me to smile. So I chose option number 2 and went out. I danced, I saw and hugged many people/friends, and I had a great time.

I needed that. Now I have to get up and face this day again at work. My boss was actually being decent towards me yesterday - it felt as though she was trying harder to include me and be nicer to me.

She meets for coffee with our director this morning. I don't know what that is about, but I imagine that I may come up in conversation? I wonder if my director will speak with her about the issues we have? I hope not. I don't want this wedge between us getting worse... I want it to get better. UGH. Yet another thing to worry about.