You have done the best you can with what life has handed you. You didn't ask for the abuse you endured. You did your best to survive and claim your life. It's hard to build up a new life now with all that you have been through, I know. And it's even harder without the support you dserve. So, try not to critize yourself about "damaging" yourself. You were coping and trying to break free. You are moving forward now and, yes, the more you reach out, the more you will heal and the more support you will build.

Hang in there. You deserve that, for you.

mtd