Funny how words can create realms of meaning that differ from person to person.

So, as opposed to you Sunny, I like the idea of being T's patient. Maybe it's because it feels "caring" to me not because it makes me feel sick or anything. Client sounds cold to me--almost lawyerly.

I feel tremendously grounded in our relationship and I like chatting and catching up at times. I think that I couldn't do that if our relationship weren't as connected as it is. But again, I think this is a difference in perspective of the concept of chatting and catching up. I don't do that easily or with people I don't care about. So, if I were to chat with T, it would be meaningful to me.

I have also recently received a dx of "complex ptsd." It came up in session. T said was the topic of complex ptsd came up at his study group and he said he thought of me and how it would explain our frequent ruptures since I have so many triggers and we keep falling into them. It wasn't like it was "Diagnosis Day" at therapy or anything.


I know that for insurance purposes he puts dysthymia because I looked up the code but we never discussed it per se. I also crash into major depression periodically and pdoc uses that dx.

Frankly, I don't think of myself as any of these things. But if it helps others to help me then it's okay.

Echoes, I don't think there is anything wrong with borderline, or any other dx for that matter.

In fact, I think we are all awesome!