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May 18, 2025, 10:50 PM
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Wanderer of Distant Stars
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Member Since: May 2012
Location: North Carolina, USA. Originally New York
Posts: 26,611
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Today was so hard. I cried for most of it, and even heard the voice
I went to mass and then did my service to the church by visiting an elderly woman and praying with her and giving her the Eucharist. My priest did say that as I get closer to God, the devil will attack more, even more so that I joined my church. I just have to be very aware of it.
I was with my parents today which was really nice. Went out with my dad shopping for a bit too. Bought a nice window fan and now I can save money on my electric bill by cutting off my A/C. It's too early to use it yet.
Those thoughts were bad and they came up because I am just so lonely, and I feel I can never be with anyone because I am so fat and ugly.
No one sees my pain or knows my pain except you guys and the once a month visit to my therapist. My parents don't know, none of my friends know how bad it is. My sponsor knows a little and she always tells me to let people know, but I just can't open up about my demons that way. No one knows the self-loathing I carry or all my pain. I am really grateufl this forum is here nad you guys are here or else I would be really alone.
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