Good evening

I ended up taking a nap when I got home from the food pantry

Was dissociating a little bit earlier but managed to pull myself out of it with some cold water on my face and some meditation.

I feel better being back up to my full dose of trileptal

Haven’t been irritable lately either which is good.

I want to go back to college in the spring (around January) to finish my associates degree. I don’t want to throw myself into something impulsively like I did with the jobs and then the stress making me unstable. But I feel with the right support I may be able to go back to college part time. Like 2 classes. When I first went to college I was taking like 6 classes a semester. I did great for almost two semesters then I got overwhelmed by the stress and ended up unstable and had to drop out. So I’m gonna limit myself to 2 classes.

Anyway, I’m gonna think it through and only do it if I feel fully ready by then mentally and make sure it’s not an impulsive decision that I end up regretting or that backfires on me.