At least I've been smart enough not to talk to my neighbor or my mom (well, since yesterday) because they would both be like "Sammy, you are either on something you shouldn't be or off something you should be on," and all I'd be able to say is "they said I looked good, I took the scheduled meds, not like I'm ALLOWED access to my morning meds until 9am, and maybe JUST FKING MAYBE I wanted a day of not taking 30-40mg of valium or other benzo equivalent for a change?"

Just put the fking IV back in and give me a fk ton of the IV version of Ativan. No waiting in misery or saying "I don't need it, it'll pass before it kicks in" and the next time my potassium or glucose drop dangerously low they won't have to put another one in. Win-win situation.