muddy, I don't know really seems like you are quite manic with hypergraphia too and liable to do rash things to me. Could be depressive too as I haven't read all your recent posts yet. So yeah, maybe mixed but I'd say def in a bipolar episode and seems like you really do need to get off the Adderall no matter what you think. You were not really functioning with Adderall and Ativan or whatever benzo you were on; your ED was so bad, doesn't sound like it to me.

And yeah, I agree with @Victoria'smom, supportive housing may be what you need at least for the time being.