I have to admit I feel guilty because I actually have an appetite while no one else seems to. Not that I'm bingeing or anything, eating pretty normally for me. I tend to have to eat more calories than most to maintain my weight due to exercising a lot, and that makes me feel guilty/ashamed/embarrassed as well. Probably should be posting this in the ED forum. I completely hate these feelings.

I've just skimmed the posts, will catch up in the afternoon. I had a rough night of sleep because I had night sweats off and on all night. I don't know if that's perimenopause or if I f*kked up and didn't put my nightly Seroquel dose in the pillbox last night. I always have night sweats when my Seroquel goes up or down. I thought I did fine with refilling my meds last week, but I need to check.

I'm doing fine otherwise, still stable. I picked up my pill for the yeast infection, finally! The pharmacist said it could cause drowsiness or dizziness. I took the pill and less than 5 min. later I got paranoid that I was having dizziness from it when I know that is ridiculous, it doesn't hit your system that quickly!

I took a break from walking this morning, did a gentle pilates video, my body needed the break. Even though the ED/OCD thoughts sort of grate against slowing down on the other hand I'm glad/proud I actually listened to my body and did what it was telling me I needed to do.

I have been having quite a bit of dissociation this morning though. Reading with the SAD lamp distracted me some, and I'm going to try drawing or painting after I post this, art usually draws me into the creative process and has helped stem dissociation quite a bit for me.

After proofreading this post, I'm having a bit rougher morning than I thought though I am not overly upset or depressed by it. My mood is still quite stable.