I hurt my friend of 20 years badly. I tried to apologize but the pain is too deep. So I wrote him an email detailed with just how wrong I was to have hurt him so. He has always been an emotional person and he’s shared his innermost feelings and thoughts and I threw them back in his face. What kind of monster am I??? In addition I had tried apologizing via text but that just made it all about me. I said I am willing to be an ear for him if he wants to start our friendship over.

That’s the gist of it anyway. I had been focusing on my pain that I might lose him but that too is selfish. I know he will take time to digest what I wrote. I can’t believe what a mean person I am!