Had therapy today. I do 2x a week. She complemented my ability to see grey in situations. I told her if I didn't I wouldn't talk to any family. I also told her about we ran over time but we are going to work on reality testing and safety. She encouraged me to reach out but not to let my friend process her feelings with me as that may confuse me more. I don't think I'm going to reach out though. I don't need more confusing feelings about this. I'm making chicken gesso for dinner with rice. I'm not doing good home alone today. Hopefully my husband will be back in about 2.5 hours. I just have to keep busy until then. I have to call and reschedule my appointment for my injection today too. Lots of things going on, lots of messy feelings. Everything sucks. My parents come Tuesday too. I'm not ready for that.