The way you fight everything suggests to me that half the side effects are you fighting anything that might work. You’ve no problem taking Ritalin or benzo s cause they can be abused and are in your mind cool drugs. It would be nice if you gave a bipolar drug half a chance. I’ve no idea what to suggest that would help you not fight so much, but gosh it must be exhausting to keep it up. Frankly I was surprised they didn’t section you into a state hospital.