You know what? Fk her. I’m not going to swallow any of that shyt they give me anymore. I don’t care if my nightmares come back or I get so emotionally dysregulated I get arrested or die or go back to the hospital or get evicted. They can inject all the valium they want, hit my bone again, sure, go ahead. I want pain, give me pain mofos. Keep me up all night every night, replace a benzo dose with bath salts, waterboard me, I’M FRIGGIN DOWN FOR SOME FUN! If I can’t physically hurt me, I can easy af get someone else to.

Coping skill: turn your traumas into kinks

I seriously have to get rid if the bipolar dx. I don’t disagree with it, but docs think I HAVE to be on Prolixin or Zyprexa or lamictal or something that is approved to stabilize mood. Doesnt matter IF IT ACTUALLY DOES or not!