Thank you for the link, @CANDC, it was really interesting to listen to.

Lately, I’ve been trying to be a bit softer in the evenings. After I put the two youngest to bed, I sit for a little while on the sofa with my oldest, just before he goes to sleep. I can tell he doesn’t feel very comfortable when I’m there, but I still stay, just for a short moment, to show him that I’m there for him, if he ever wants to talk. So far, he hasn’t really shown any interest, and that makes me a bit sad. I can feel that something isn’t right, but I don’t know how to help him.

Tomorrow we’re going to a park, and it’s a few hours away by car. All week, he’s been saying he doesn’t want to come, even though I really think he does want to go. He often gets anxious when we’re going somewhere far away or staying away from home for too long. I’ve tried many times to ask what it is he’s worried about, but he won’t tell me, or maybe he doesn’t know how to explain it. I keep wondering if all of this is somehow connected. Not knowing what’s going on in his mind or how he feels is really worrying me.

Thank you too, @Tart Cherry Jam. Reading what you wrote… I honestly feel scared and confused, a diaper fetish?! How? How would I even handle something like that, if that’s what this is? I feel a bit panicked, honestly.
Even more thoughts spinning in my head now.
Over the last few weeks, I know he’s been wearing a diaper in the evening and still has it on in the morning. I’ve been thinking the whole time that maybe he’s just struggling with bedwetting again, and that he’s too ashamed to tell me. Because I remember how hard it was for him the last time he had issues with it.