@Blue_Bird you mentioning the library inspired me. Before I left for IP I was halfway through The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy and went for a walk intending to go to the library but ended up going 3 miles in the opposite direction to check out a tattoo shop, and it started to DOWNPOUR! Like, torrential rain, a little hail, lightning, crazy winds. Nearly flooded my apartment when I got back. The book got soaked and unreadable for a bit and I’ve been meaning every day since I got back to pick it back up, just haven’t, so packed it, headed out, and the library is closed all weekend for Memorial Day. I started reading on a bench outside, and of course started feeling raindrops (and saw a drug deal go down). I walked to another park with a better seating situation and less drug dealing and it’s pretty dry so I think I’ll do a few more chapters and some journaling. I picked out a couple DBT worksheets too to work on this week in case I get a chance to practice certain skills and can fill them out.
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I went to the store this morning and got stuff for the apartment. Some hooks to hang up my jackets so I have a couple extra hangers available, some spices, a lighter blanket for the warmer weather coming, soap, and a pair of pants that I really hope will fit. Right now I’m stuck to one pair of leggings and two pairs of sweats and PJ pants, so hopefully these work out. Not that I don’t love showing up for therapy in my Chucky PJs haha.

I’ve been hardcore dissociating a lot so trying to get back into logging my daily activities so I can tell my case manager I do stuff during the day instead of “what have you been up to?” “…uhhh, I wrote in my calendar I have a voc rehab meeting soon so I guess I talked to my counselor.” “You need to add more activities to your day.” (Actually has done 4 calc lessons and quizzes, journaled and did DBT stuff everyday, read a book, explored a new park, hung out with my neighbors, practiced violin a few times, walked a couple dogs now that I’m Rover-approved, visited my mom, did shyt for section 8 and my bank account, been busy cleaning, went to the library almost every day, etc. since seeing her the prior week is typically more like it), but, no, “I need to get hobbies so I don’t sit around in the apartment alone all day.”