I'm very sad today, like crying sad. It's like I can feel the entire weight of the horrors of the world on my shoulders, all the pain, etc., and I don't like it. Why do people have to be so awful to each other? Why do bad things happen to good people and why do people have to suffer and why have people suffered? I can't stand it! I FEEL the pain of it all and it hurts. What's the point, really? It's pointless. I'm not even making any sense I realize. I had to go back up to 30mg of loxapine because at 10mg I felt like I was losing my mind. Was hearing and feeling the negative entity, seeing it looking out through my eyes in the mirror, getting really paranoid, etc. I'm still paranoid to an extent.

I can SEE the world clearly now.

And it's a bad place that I'll, soon enough, no longer be a part of and in a hundred years be long forgotten, like all those before me.