It sounds like you are in a very difficult situation and hopefully the hospital will surround you with people to give you support. I know it can be difficult but I do believe with the correct support then facing the problems that haunt us do give us insight, clarity and the ability to heal and move on. The body doesn't let us forget. It also sounds like the place where you live isn't safe and you don't feel safe in it, is there any option or ability to move somewhere else?

- Stay safe, wishing you healing and dreamless sleep! Forest Child x